The duck in the shadow spits and barks.
He is gazing into yesterday’s oil-slicked
puddles, looking for the meteor shower.
He is out late, much later than usual.
Ducks do not do well at night.
They don’t have the eyes for it.
And by the way, you’d be surprised
if you knew how things smelled to a duck.
To a duck lots of things that are
quite different smell just the same.
Or not at all.
The duck in the dark isn’t feeling well.
I hope you can believe me, after I admit
that I lied about him spitting and barking.
Ducks don’t spit, not the way we mean.
And though to a duck a quack sounds
just like a bark (in fact ducks actually
call a quack a bark) to us it’s not really
the kind of sound we’d call a bark. Close,
but no. And just to come completely clean
no, he wasn’t really looking for meteors.
The duck in the dark isn’t feeling well
because he is old, and because he ate
something that normally kills a duck.
If the duck were a young strong duck
he would have a little better chance.
But our duck (his name is Rayburn)
has no such luck. He is an old duck.
Don’t get me wrong. Ducks eat all
kind of junk. It seems to be in their nature.
So it’s nobody’s fault in particular.
Rayburn isn’t a particularly sensitive
duck. He doesn’t write much poetry, for
example. At least not the way we mean.
But to think that Rayburn doesn’t have
feelings would be quite a mistake. For
example he loves the sound of his friends
barking across the wide freshwater pond.
Especially late in autumn, when the cold
airs come. The barking seems to warm him.
It comforts him. It gives him heart.
Unfortunately whatever Rayburn ate has
made him deaf as well. So not only does he
feel sick, he’s also lost that sense of being
close to his friends. And that’s made him
lonely. The sun is setting quickly now. Rayburn
looks across the choppy waters of the pond
hoping he’ll spot one of his many cousins.
He looks ahead, behind, to either side. Nothing.
Then he thinks he hears something, off to the northwest
and tries his best to spread his stiffening wings.
But it’s no use. Rayburn drifts over to the near
shore and lays up in a clump of mangrove weeds.
A few baby blue gill swim around him, as if
they are playing a game of tag or hide-and-seek.
But Rayburn is no longer hungry. For the first time
in his duck life, he can simply look at them whirling
about, splashing, having fun. Somehow this pleases
him. He even manages what passes for a duck smile.
Then he lays his sleek brilliant head on an outcrop
of mud and fern, and sleeps. And dreams. And sleeps.